Mirror, Mirror

Mirror, Mirror, on the wall
Let's start from the very top top

The tinted hair
You see
Is just to cover
and
to conceal
The truth behind it all
Alas, color fades

Staring at the grays
I gasped!
I must do something fast!
God forbid!
The world should see
What lies hidden
beneath..
These fake bright hues
What shame it would be
to exhibit
My true true colors

Oh,
My eyes are okay
They didn't shrivel much
Except
Those youthful sparkle
never quite returned
Just
don't look people
in the eye
They would never catch on

This nose
Instinctive
Intimidating
Let's not talk about it

Moving on..

The
sagging cheeks
The droopy rims of my mouth
Yes
They are a dead giveaway
The lack of smiles
Ah
Where can you hide
Those pain
Those tears

And
Of course
not to leave out
This double chin

From looking down
Too much
Too often
Perhaps?

To pen down
my thoughts
Into some
measly verses
All in the hopes
Of turning
my wounds
Into wisdom
Perhaps?

Random Thoughts

Some people were born to face life alone. Some get help along the way. And this is neither good nor bad. It is just life.

Thoughts

"Acceptance does not necessarily mean reconciliation. You can accept someone and, yet, ban them from your life." -T.K. (Sept 21st, '15)

Thoughts

"Life is not a contest. Your pain counts as much as anyone else's. Don't minimise your hurt by thinking others have been hurt much worse." -T.K. (Sept 20th, '15)

Think 'New!'

We talk of improving the circumstances surrounding us yet we are reluctant in improving ourselves; our lives therefore remain stagnant. As a result, we feel bound, restricted and suffocated. We feel like we're trapped in a spinning wheel. The fact of it is...circumstances can and will change. It has to start from ourselves...our thoughts and our actions. We need a new approach in thinking. We need a new outbreak in action. This is the only way to escape from an impasse.

-Thanyarat Komolsingsakul

Ebb and Flow

Years and years of silence. And now it's suddenly flowing like a gushing stream. Shouldn't I be thankful? Of course I am! I'm so grateful...beyond words! I just want more free time to concentrate on them--on my winged thoughts, I mean.

I've Been Told

I've been told
That I'm on a roll.
I've been told
That I have to be bold.
I've been told
That if I want gold...
Thoughts must unfold
And that I must uphold
To achieve the untold.

- Thanyarat Komolsingsakul

Detach Yourself or Grin and Bear It...or...Die Trying...

Can you think yourself out of a bad situation? Maybe you can and maybe you can't, but what you can most certainly do is think yourself out of bad thoughts on the situation. Yes, that's right, when you have no other options this is the option.

It's futile to be brooding about things when you know you're stuck in it. If you can't detach yourself from the situations then the best you can do is change your attitude. Moping and grumbling will only do harm to you and no one else. The problem lies with you now and not with the circumstances. Are you going to let circumstances rule you? Are you going to let the bad situations in your life determine your happiness?

Attitude is everything. You can choose to pout and feel bad about your prevailing mishaps or you can choose to conquer them with your thinking. It is up to you and no one else.

You see, when you're stuck in such conditions that you can't get out of (or even if you can but won't, for whatever reasons) the problem shifted from the situations to you. In other words, you have become the problem. Your next task is, therefore, to change yourself....change your attitude...your outlook. And let me tell you this...it surely is a tough job.

Yes, I mentioned it being tough, but mind you, not impossible to achieve. So keep this in mind always..."Tough times don't last, but tough people do".

The Alleged 'Syndrome' Resurfaces

I think my imagination is too vivid--leaning towards something detrimental. I tend to fathom the worst in a situation. Life's too good! I am being inanely paranoid, especially these days.

"When life gives you lemon, make lemonade out of it", "Look on the bright side of things", "Life is what you make it". These and many phrases I can quote. But I certainly am not practicing what I preach. I freely hand out encouraging quotes to people who're in distress. But what happens when it's me? I freeze out. I blur out. I black out. I know not what to do, nor how to handle my own emotions.

This empty nest thing shouldn't be this bad. I should be able to cope with it and tone it down. Instead, I seem to be breaking down time and again. Some circumstances aren't even worth distressing about. Yet, off I go on my wondrous land of agony. Why do I keep doing this to myself? Subconsciously, do I feel that I don't deserve to be unconditionally happy? Who knows? Maybe I do feel this way but am oblivious to it.

The subconscious is a sneaky yet powerful thing. It lurks and it looms...and it awaits...sort of saying-- "Don't put your guard down, or else...". And down comes my guard. And the submerged emerges.