Stuck in a Rut

Sometimes I feel like my life is so mundane and I'm in stuck in a blind alley. I have to find a way to get out of this mouse wheel fast! I suddenly realized I've been following the same old pattern day in and day out. This impasse could create an unbearable ennui. If I don't do something about it now, I would be in-too-deep.

I need to change my course of actions. Out with the old, in with the new. Find a new outlet, a new hobby, a new entertainment--something like an intellectual egression. My brain is rusting away with this lack of use.

Pride and Joy 2

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My Pride and Joy

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Untattered

Much has changed and yet nothing has. Our friendships remain untattered through time and space. We are truly blessed to have such long lasting affections.

Days Like This

Days like this is what keeps you going...
Days like this is what makes life flowing...
Days like this we will ever reminisce...
Days like this we will always miss...
Days like this creates hope...
Days like this proves...LOVE..
Can really endure...
The test of TIME..
(to quote an old adage).

Touched...Touched...Touched...

Last night's event touched my heart so. I still can't stop thinking about it nor cease blogging. I'm sure everyone went through the same warmth and happiness. However, if I seem like coming on much much stronger than anyone else, it may be because of my reversed crisis. My optimism has never failed me. Yet, these days, my exuberances are never-ending. In fact, I'm becoming more and more favorably receptive to all the things around me. I'm appreciating everything regardless of anything.

Yes, that's right! The glum in me has gone!

Another Afterthought

Our friendships will never die...
We all have things to smile...
Our friendships will flourish...
We will forever cherish...
Our bond is too strong...
Our road together is long...

Still in Awe

I'm still in awe over last night's 30th year reunion celebration. How can friends play such a vital part in warming our hearts? And these are your high school friends whom you haven't met in ages! I'm truly deeply touched by our friendship.

Reminiscing was inevitable. And reminisce we surely did. It felt like not a day went by--like it was just yesterday that we walked hand in hand. We all possess such precious jewels amongst us. We may drift apart at times, we may now lead different lives completely devoid of each other, but in the end, we all are one. Remember, true friends can grow separately without ever really growing apart. The memories or the times shared will never fade. We will have these memories to cherish for as long as we live.

When your life doesn't seem to make sense, look up to these memories. They will get you through everything. When you're having the perfect life, think of these memories. They will make your life even brighter. "Friendship is the only cement which will hold the world together." Woodrow T. Wilson

I have nothing else to add for now. My life is perfect with my family and my friends in it!

My Prized Possession

Friends, I have no words...
Friends, I can only love...
Friends, you are always there...
Friends, you do really care...
Friends, we always have fun...
Friends, we are never done...
Friends, I have such treasures...
Friends, I know nothing measures...
Friends, you are lovable...
Friends, you are irreplaceable...
Friends, we will ever cherish...
Friends, we will never perish...
Friends....
Never again will we...
Be asunder..

Unforgettable....Touched for the Umpteenth Time

Wow! I mean, wow! Friends are such treasures. They can truly warm the heart so. Today is proof of that. It's like we have never been apart! There was no awkward silence, nor any rapport needed to build things up. What a wonderful feeling it is to have such amazing friends. Today is the day I'll treasure for the rest of my life.

Potential vs Possibility

Potentials, we all have them in diverse quantities. It’s just sad that some go through their whole lives without ever really discovering what they are. Or, maybe, (they) don’t care.

It’s fairly an impossible task to motivate someone who’s got the potential but will not look for a possibility. Interest is another aspect. You may have all the aptitude in the world, and the possibilities are also open for you. But, you’re not interested in that particular endeavor. Not even an elephant can drag you then. (this is actually translated from a Thai proverb)

While it’s true that the right attitude will get you somewhere, the opposite is also true. A gifted person with a poor attitude can undoubtedly bloom, no ifs ands or buts. Sometimes just a little self-enhancement is all it takes to get you going.

So is this boiling down to the undisputable claim that our attitudes determine our aptitudes? Is our enthusiasm a more plausible ingredient for our self-advancement?

Deception

CHANGE......What a deceptive concept! "Change is the only thing that's eternal." How lame this phrase is! It's all a lie! I have seen and personally met a person who, in spite of all the conscious efforts on her part, always reverts back to the old ways! So, how is change relevant in this case?

Every time the same old promises...the same old sorry's...and the same old...It won't happen again. Never works. Old habits die hard.

What a handicap this is on the recipient(s) of this rigid individual's ignonimy! We are supposed to bear with her and accept all her follies especially when the insults are hurled directly at us. It's such an impossible endeavor!

Robert Frost's Poem: The Road Not Taken

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.


- Robert Frost
American Poet, Pulitzer Prize Winner
(1875 - 1963)

Virtue

Patience is really a virtue. Trust me....I know it. Yes, you may get a bit frustrated from time to time but being patient through all those times is worth it all. Imagine a lifetime of heartaches avoided from showing constraint. You never have to run after yourself to wipe off your shit (pardon my French). Coz whatever begins in anger always ends in shame.

An Afterthought

Life can be hard
When you take things to heart

Life can be mundane
And it may feel like rain

Never lose hope
For you never will mope

Have faith that things will change
For laughter you will see again

Cliche or not...nothing ever lasts.
Cliche no doubt...change is eternal.

Midlife Crisis

I'm living my life in reverse. Now is the time to be all tensed up and edgy. Instead, I'm all ecstatic and light hearted. I now delight in the things that I once considered senseless and inane. What a boon to my existence! I don't have to go through what other midlife women go through! I don't have to have angry outbursts and irrational vexation! What a benefit to my being!

Yes..I've been warned...by doctors, friends and relatives....even by books. I anticipated all or some of the symptoms and was ready to embrace them. But they were a no-show. I am free. I am spared. I am a happy soul.

They said life is going to be hard. Mine has been easy. They said every little things can trigger you. I am now so patient with big things. They said lethargy will set in. I'm all energetic and peppy. Could this be true? Is it really happening in the opposite for me? Does this so-called crisis really sit well with me?

Don't talk too fast...you might say. It surly will happen. There is no escape...you might add. Well, I doubt it ever will. Look at me!!! I'm so joyful and bubbly. Are these the signs of a person suffering from a midlife crisis?!?

Laughing during a stupidly funny movie! Come on...you know I would never do that! I would just sit still while others can't seem to stop laughing. It's the other way around now. I actually laugh at those silly scenes in movies. What could be going on if not the reverse effect of this crisis?!? Until you can provide me with a decent observation, I'm taking it at face value.

Call of Duty

Duty. Is it so wrong if we evade it? I’m talking about a duty to the nation. Is it so wrong to shun it? Is it so wrong for a mother to try to find a way out for her son? Is it so wrong for us to seek out an escape for this hazardous ‘call of duty’?

I am in such a dilemma. I just want to shriek out so loud. Tears are gathering up as I reflect. Such a life threatening decision shouldn’t be so hard for one to decide upon. But it is. It always is. And the decision will haunt me forever. But I will do what I have to do. I have to protect my son.

All lives are precious. I know. Imagine those who do not even have the luxury to think about an escape. What do they do? How do they cope?

I’m going to go ahead and do the unfathomable thing here. I’m going to desperately be on a quest for an alibi….something to keep him safe under my roof.

I am willing to let everyone condemn me. I am willing to let people reprimand me. My son must remain home with me, safe under my care. He will elude all calls of duty. So…..BERATE ME!!!

Success : The Final Frontier???

Each of us brings something different to the table. Some lives are meant to be enriched by loving parents, and others are meant to suffer with them. Some are born to be successful at everything they touch, others are born to be the best parent a child could ever have. We can not expect everyone to be a notable businessman. Nor can we expect that all parents can fulfill the desires of their children.

We need to be able to discern and recognize the diverse roles of the various people in our lives. They all have their place in this world and in our lives. Good people need not be wealthy people. The individual at the top of the ladder need not be the bad ones. Judging a person by their monetary success and fame is faulty. Some men are distinguished humanitarians. Others are just assholes.

It is crucial that we enlighten ourselves with these facts of life. We should not assume that a remarkable person must also be lucrative. Should we really appraise an individual according to his abundance? Or is his noble character sufficient for reckoning?

These are burdensome elements to reflect upon. We have been brought up to esteem financial achievement as the ultimate attainment. Are we willing to substitute our bed of roses with commonplace existence?

Waiting

I've been waiting
For a guy like you
To come into my life
To make things right

I've been waiting
For a guy like you
To take away all my pain
To keep me sane

I've been waiting
For a guy like you
Who knows all my trouble
I never need to babble

I've been waiting
For a guy like you
Who will cherish me
However I will be

I've been waiting.....
And I found you

Sons

Son I'm so proud of who you've become
You've made my life worth treasuring
You seek after your dreams without retrieving
You continue to grow in the right direction
In spite of the obstacles in your path
You never falter from your true self
Your moral is strong and firm

You came into this world
To take away my pain
You came into my life
To make things right
You are a gift from heaven sent

In your quiet contemplation
You gained your muse
You are such a kindred spirit

I could not have asked for a better son

"Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you've imagined." Henry David Thoreau

Do Good

When a mean person goes out of her way to do something nice for you, is it safe to say that she has changed? Or does she have some ulterior motives?

If she’s whispering into your ears and asking your forgiveness for all the heartaches that she has caused you, can you be sure that it’s going to be permanent?

All these and other unanswered questions are lurking in my head.

Yes I reciprocated. What else could I have done? I am a gentle soul. I give ‘good’ when I get ‘good’. And yes, I give ‘good’ even when I don’t get ‘good’. It’s just the way I am. I have good and loving parents. They taught me the ways of the world. They taught me compassion. They taught me forgiveness. They taught me that people are fallible regardless of who they are. Most important of all I was taught that everyone has goodness in them.

To sum it all up…..Do Good All The Time.

If

If I tell you to love me
Will you do so without asking
If I tell you to kiss me
Will you do so without flinching
If I tell you to hug me
Will you do so without stiffening
If I tell you to smile at me
Will you do so without smirking
If I tell you to look at me
Will you do so without gawking
If I 'had' to tell you to do those things to me.....
What does it say about our relationship?!?!?

Feelings

Nothing can be compared to the 'highs' you get from aerobics exercise. This endorphine thing is like a drug. You get so addicted. The craving is so compelling.

On the days that you can't fit exercise into your hectic schedule, you feel so empty. You try to squeeze it in, somehow, with the little time that you have. And when it doesn't work your way, you make a pact to double your routine for the next day.

Blame

Blaming others for the bad situations in your life will not resort to anything. Instead, humbly accept the circumstances and move on, or, do something to improve them. You always have a choice. Circumstances can change. Nothing is ever permanent, be it happiness or unhappiness.

Stand up and take charge of your life. No one can make you do anything without your consent. You can either choose to sit still or to rise above it all. Exert your rights.

Nothing good ever comes of blaming others for the events in your life. Change it. If you can't then change the way you perceive it. When you place blame on someone, it enslaves you. This feeling puts you in bondage forever. Only when you accept will you be free. Forgiveness and acceptance heal.

Positive outlook is everything. No matter how bad the situations, it will change.