I Know

I know it's raining in my life,
I know my strife.

I know love fades,
And I know
I'm going through
These charades.

But the sun will rise again,
Soon...

I KNOW!

-Thanyarat Komolsingsakul

Sweet Success

O dear success, thou art seem sweet,
Man strives and toils, all in desire to meet.
O dear success, thou art protest,
Man falls and bows, at thine conquest.

O dear sweet success, man art in envy,
Man's life, in turmoil and in frenzy,
Aspiring and relinquishing,
...so to be at thine mercy.

O dear sweet sweet success,
Man's lot is cursed or blessed,
Living in this nest of unrest,
Hoarding more than one could ingest.

Is it a dream to be pursued?
Is it a pang of the old?
Is it Nature's grant of gold?
Or is it just...
A wish gone cold?

-Thanyarat Komolsingsakul

Let Me Be Your Smile

Let me be your smile,
Even though I'm not your style.

Let me be...Let me be...
And you will see...
All the glee.

-Thanyarat Komolsingsakul

All Shall Be Received

You say set me free,
I say stay with me
You say you've had enough,
I say life is tough
You say all is well,
Yet I'm going through hell
You say never should I fret,
For you have no regret
You say trust and believe,
Nevermore would you grieve,
For all shall be relieved,
And all shall be received

-Thanyarat Komolsingsakul

Let Me Be Your Light

Let me be your light,
Let me take away all your plights

Let me be your ear,
Let me take away all your tears

-Thanyarat Komolsingsakul

Let Me Be...

Let me be your shoulder,
I promise I won’t smother,
Let me be your sunshine,
And keep you from pine,
Let me the joys
That keeps your noise,
All clear and poised

Let me be your shelter,
And shield you from bad weather,
Let me be your sun,
Oh, please let me be the one,
And when all is said and done,
Let you have all of life’s fun,
And may you never be outdone

-Thanyarat Komolsingsakul

A Time to Fly

I wish I could've kept you,
I wish I could've told you,
And I wish I could've held you,
And I wish there's a way through.

But I guess you had to fly,
And I know it is time,
But I wish I could've fixed,
Whatever had you so jittered.

I should not so hope,
To keep you here in a tightrope.
I should not so long,
To write you your song.

When nests are dispersed,
'Tis not always a couldburst,
Coz life always finds a way,
And your life begins today.

- Thanyarat Komolsingsakul

Let Constancy Be My Name

Let constancy be my name
Let whenever I rise to fame
I will be mindful and grateful
Of the things that made me successful

Let kindness be my friend
Let me never offend
Or bring anyone down
Let me not dwell in pride

May I live in honor
May I dwell in the good
And give Character a new meaning yet
Let me be not in over my head

- Thanyarat Komolsingsakul

Ebb and Flow

Years and years of silence. And now it's suddenly flowing like a gushing stream. Shouldn't I be thankful? Of course I am! I'm so grateful...beyond words! I just want more free time to concentrate on them--on my winged thoughts, I mean.

I've Been Told

I've been told
That I'm on a roll.
I've been told
That I have to be bold.
I've been told
That if I want gold...
Thoughts must unfold
And that I must uphold
To achieve the untold.

- Thanyarat Komolsingsakul

Please Go, Please Stay

Oh, this achy plight
Please subside.

Oh, this direful disdain
Please begone.

Oh, this woeful restlessness
Don't be a pest.

Oh, this blessed inspiration
Be ever so present!

- Thanyarat Komolsingsakul

Everywhere Has Flair

When your find yourself
In the middle of nowhere,
Ne'er do you care,
Coz everywhere,
Has its flair.

- Thanyarat Komolsingsakul

I Saw the Truth

Oft times I wonder
Where is that line
That bridges or divides
To decide what's right.

Oft times I stand
Not making demands
Wondering where I land
'Tis hard to understand.

The ways of man
Can so bemuse, thus bringing
Portions of distress and restlessness
Heart finds it tough to fathom
The far gone depths of deceit
The despicable conspiracy
The 'filled-with-ulterior-motive' intimacy.

Is sincerity never to be found?
Is truthfulness such an obsolete?
Is kindness a rarity?
Is happiness so flimsy?
Is faith a no-no endeavor?
Are dreams that hard to grasp?
And is life really worth the pain?

I have been shown,
I have been known,
And I have flown...
Alone and aloof...
And I saw...

THE TRUTH

- Thanyarat Komolsingsakul

Indifference

We all grow accustomed to the pain in our lives, sometimes we even become indifferent to them. And indifference is a good thing, sometimes, because it serves as a defense mechanism. But go at it long enough and you lose the vivaciousness of life. You become all cooped up in yourself and all cold and distant towards the people and events surrounding your life. Believe me, I know.

It happened to me a long time ago. I was really in-too-deep with this 'apathy' thing. It affected everyone around me, and I was too naive to even realize it. I almost couldn't get out of it, too. But I overcame it and am a changed person now.

- Thanyarat Komolsingsakul

Be Persistent

Some people outlive their dreams, some die taking their dreams along with them...never really finding out what their dreams are all about. Some lived, yet their dreams and their souls died on the insides long before their bodies did. But some, if they're persistent enough, get to make history with their dreams. I hope I fall into this latter category.

- Thanyarat Komolsingsakul

Be Not Afraid

Be not afraid...
Though dreams fade...
Do reignite...
And--
bring them to light.

-Thanyarat Komolsingsasul

Fear

Fear is good...
Fear is cool...
Fear stops us...
And we adjust...
We devise anew...
And find a way through...
Or a way around...
To be found...

Fear protects..
Fear directs..
Fear reflects...
And suspects...
Keeping us on guard...
Tiptoeing in our path.

Tad is enough...
Too much...
Fear disrupts.

-Thanyarat Komolsingsakul

Take It Easy

Take it easy...
Life is breezy...

Take it slow...
Life will flow.

Take to blues...
And you lose...

Take to grin...
And you win.

-Thanyarat Komolsingsakul

Life Is Yours

Life is rain...
Life is pain...
Can't complain.

Life is joy...
Life is toy...
Don't be coy.

Life endures...
Life allures...
Yet...
Life is yours!

-Thanyarat Komolsingsakul

No Tears

Give life no tears...
Be in cheers.

When through the years...
The world sneers...
Rise...
Banish all fears...
God hears...
Salvation nears.

-Thanyarat Komolsingsakul

Happiness Can't Be Bought

Sunny skies...
Warm smiles...
All arise...
And apprise...
From inside...
Be advised.

Prize of Passion

Passion stirs...
From nothingness...
To something blessed.

Passion lingers...
When persists...
Not resists.

Passion drives...
And revives...
Old haggard hearts.

-Thanyarat Komolsingsakul

One Good Deed A Day

Let your good deeds shine into the world. One good deed a day is all it requires. You don't have to give much--just start with a smile, a kind word, or a helping hand. That's all. See? Not hard, is it? This is all it takes to make a pleasant existence for anyone who needs it.

Men have forgotten how to be civil to each other. We've forgotten to connect and to ask about our daily experiences. We're caught up in this fast-paced routine! This rat race! We must hurry to gather our wealth lest it goes far out of our reach! No, we do not have the time to ask a friend how he's doing! No, we do not have the energy to go help a friend in need! And we certainly do not have the means to buy comfort for others! Shoo! Go away, friends and foes! I am swamped!

Sadly, this is our modern-day attitude. And sadly, everyone accepts it and lives with it. No one thinks of changing themselves. No one wants to change anything. Things are fine. Everything is cool. Everyone has busy lives. This is our present-day mentality and we are doing absolutely nothing to rectify it.

But things are not fine. And things are not cool. Things need to be fixed--and at haste! Mankind needs to reconnect and bond. How can humanity flourish if we're only keen on being with machines and gadgets? How can we cure this world with 'love' if we're only spreading it through text messages and computer outputs?

So, this brings us back to my point of start. Do one good deed a day--person to person. Not machine to machine--nah-ah. Go out and touch a life. Go out and enter a soul. Go out and explore someone else's dream. Venture into the town and light up a heart. Make a small start. First with your kins and friends, then with your neighbors, and, finally, with strangers.

Let them call you odd. Let them call you inane. Let them even call you show-off. If you're doing it for mankind, you need have no shame. For you know what your heart is about. You know what your mind can conjure. And you know where the truth lies. All you need now is determination and sincerity. Go out with the pureness of your heart and touch a life.

I believe we can achieve great things if we truly have faith in 'love' and 'kindness'. Go out and interact with people. Renounce technology and go out there and make a difference! You know you can!

-Thanyarat Komolsingskaul

Yet, I’m Here

I’ve been beaten
more often times than not…
I’ve been trampled upon
more than is necessary…
I’ve been scorned at
much more than my dues…
And yet..
I’m here!
As strong as new!

- Thanyarat Komolsingsakkul

Give Us Back Our Beloved Land

Give us back our beloved Land...
The land of our never-ending smiles...
The land of our endless love...
And our warm sunshine...
The land that has been defined...
And described...
As peaceful and forgiving...
So accepting and devoted...
To souls of all nations.

Alas, woe has struck...
Time and again...
What remains...
Are our shattered hearts...
And our dissipated dreams...
Time and again...
We hopelessly try...
To maintain...
And contain...

Despair and anguish returns...
How hard we try to spurn...
In spite of all concerns...
Can't ever escape the upturn...
Of riotous ado and turbulent turmoil...

Is it too much to ask?
Is it such an impossible task?
Stop wearing those masks!!!
Stop pretending you're smart!!!
Stop with all the evoking!!!
Stop with all the provoking!!!

AND...

Give us back our beloved Land!!!

-Thanyarat Komolsingsakul

Obligations....A Nuisance?

So many obligations! How to prioritize? How to even discard some? These may prove to be the most difficult tasks of your life.

When...

(When) Happiness is hard…
Play your part…
Never take to heart.

When joy seems far…
Wherever you are…
Look for a star.

When hope is bleak…
Don’t be weak…
Be at peak.

When road is long…
Ride along…
Sing your song.

When goals seems farfetched…
Patience can be outstretched…
Thoughts...
Can be sketched.

When life is cruel…
Make it a rule…
Never to drool…
Or be made a fool...
At your own ridicule.

-Thanyarat Komolsingsakul

Beauty in Misery

Find beauty in each misery. This is your task every morning. Never let circumstances bring you down. Never let cruel stances kill your spirits. It is not easy, but it is possible.

-Thanyarat Komolsingsakul

Be Meek

Whatever you do seek...
Be ever so meek...
Whatever you do yearn...
Do discern...
And take heed.

Whatever be your delight...
Remember the right...
Neglect the wrong...
Be strong...
Be firm.

- Thanyarat Komolsingsakul

Dear Mother Earth

Dear Mother Earth...
We rob and we cheat...
Trapping you at our feet...
We trample and we deplete...
All of nature's abundant feat...

We sit back...
And then we relax...
We wait...
For the compensation...
That Nature teems
With no apprehension...
We are merciless
To your creations.
We surely are a greedy lot.

We know we deserve no pardon...
And though we repeat our shame...
We gravely beg
And we exclaim...
That thou would rescue us
Of this blame...
And heal and bless us...
All the same.

- Thanyarat Komolsingsakul

Risks

Risks may seem scary…
But if you dare…
And not be weary…
Things will be starry.

Risks may be a ‘no-no’…
Feels like a blow…
Just go…
With the flow.

Risks…
If you so wish…
Just a whisk…
And not so amiss…

Can transform…
And thus restore…
Stability…
And Serenity.

- Thanyarat Komolsingsakul

The Tide Has Turned

Hey there gloomy girl...
The tide has turned...
The wind has churned...
And all that you yearned...
Has come to pass--
at last.

Living in your own world--
so estranged...
This close to being written off--
as deranged...
Nothing remains unchanged...
Nature should not be--
so shortchanged...

Nature longs to be obeyed...
That is how self is portrayed...
Be not so afraid...
For talents delayed...
Shall be by and by relayed...
Everyday...
At last.

- Thanyarat Komolsingsakul

Despicable

Despicable...
Is the word...
Take my word.

Despicable...
Is the man...
Who takes command...
And demands.

Despicable..
If it be...
Taking things...
In his hands...
And never...
Granted stands.

Despicable...
Sad to say...
Though obey...
Still in fray...

Despicable...
Ever so tired...
This dire desolation...
This heinous calamity...
And this depiction...
Of (my) life!

- Thanyarat Komolsingsakul

My Winged Thoughts

There I go again...
Please do not complain.

There I go again...
It's ringing in my brain.

There I go again...
I just cannot contain.

There I go again...
And I'm not even in pain.

There I go again...
Please do pardon me...
With this train...
Of my winged thoughts.

- Thanyarat Komolsingsakul

- Thanyarat Komolsingsakul

Have Faith...

I thought I had..
Signed my mind off…
For a funeral.
But have faith you all…
Have faith…

Dawn will break…
Dreams will take.
That silver lining…
Will come a shining…
Have faith…

- Thanyarat Komolsingsakul

Old Is Gold

Yes yes yes!
It is true!

Old hopes are renewed...
Old dreams refurbished...
Old kins reconnected...
Old friends are dearer...
Life has meaning...
To the living...

Old possibilities resurfaced...
Merging with the new...
Old habits once scorned...
Now greatly adorned...
Old hopes forlorn...
No longer to be mourned.

That which was once lost...
Can henceforth be reclaimed...
Love reunited are ever...
Enduring and alluring...
Old enchantment acclaimed...
Old devotion proclaimed.

Old aspirations...old desires...
Need no longer be astray.

Yes yes yes!
It is true!


- Thanyarat Komolsingsakul

All Shall Be Mine

Sometimes I indulge in vice...
Sometimes I'm far from nice...
And that is what you feel..
But that is how I heal.

The sun did not shine...
And I needed to pine...
You could not help but assume...
You went and had me entombed.

Though now I am trapped...
All buried and strapped...
Things could not hide...
Things are now left wide...

All is open...
All is good...
All is restored...
And all shall be mine.

- Thanyarat Komolsingsakul

What I Want

I want my writing to get published as a real book and circulated throughout the whole world.

I want to be recognized as a notable writer.

I want to go down in history as a writer who can truly inspire and move people.

I want schools/colleges to use my writings as materials for their courses.

Awaken Your Dreams

Dreams...
Something out of reach...
It seems...

Dreams...
Something everybody needs...
It supersedes...

Dreams...
Really not that elusive...
Just exclusive...

Dreams...
Really never to forsake...
But to partake...

And to make it AWAKE...

- Thanyarat Komolsingsakul

How Dare You!

How dare you! How dare you!

Have you been in my life?
Have you seen what it's like?
Have you ever known the plight?
Have you ever been in sight?

Coz if you have you might
Stop with the acclaimed insight
Or else I'll take flight
Coz I'm tired of this fight
To correct and to spite
To forever make things right.

How dare you! How dare you!

- Thanyarat Komolsingsakul

In God's Presence

In God's presence
There is no pretense

In God's presence...
There is no offense

In God's presence...
Our love is intense

In God's presence...
Our faith is immense

In God's presence...
We can only commence...
Never to do those things...
Which misrepresents...
The loving words...
That God presents.

- Thanyarat Komolsingsakul

God Is Near

I set off to school
I am no fool
God is here
God is near

I am kind to friends
To their needs I attend
God is here
God is near

I abide by rules
I am such jewels
God is here
God is near

To my teachers I obey
To our One God I pray
God is here
God is near

I need never have worries
Coz I know the stories
And I feel the glories
God is here
God is near

And I never ever
Have to fear
Coz God is forever here
And God is forever near

- Thanyarat Komolsingsakul

Why Worry

Why worry...
When God is by your side...
Why worry...
When in God you abide...
Why worry...

Why worry...
With everything you decide...
Pray let God be your guide...
You will never be in plight...
Why worry...

Why worry...
When in every stride...
You strive towards what's right...
Why worry...
Forever in God's sight...
Your future is bright...
Why worry...

WHY WORRY!

- Thanyarat Komolsingsakul

No Lame, No Blame

You may think it's so lame...
You may think it's all same.
And for this I have no claim...
And for this I do not blame.

Please know this and see this...
All I have now is bliss.
So if this seems a game...
I would rather...
Live the shame.

- Thanyarat Komolsingsakul

My Muse Returneth

So proud am I of these wits...
For to me it matters not...
That they merely come in bits..

For it is never too late...
Nor is it ever out of date...
Thus to open the gate...
Which have long been await...
To grant and to create...
That which is in my head...
Thus bring it back from dead.

I Am Happy and Whole

Happy am I so with myself...
I know I do need a little help.
Whole am I and inspired...
I know I can never be tired.
Grateful am I of my muse...
Without which I can never ruse...
Or put my wits to use.

My Teacher, My Mentor

Daily I go to see...
Daily I long to be...
Daily I know I will...
Daily I wait until...
Back am I in your care.

For your love is rare...
Coz my life is fair...
With you by my side...
In every stride...
Forever will I abide...
In God's loving guide.

Fool

Fool is he who gives his all...
Fool is he who fails to read...
The writing on the wall.

Fool is he who trusts...
Fool is he who lets innocence...
Crumble him into crusts.

Fool is he who gives his all...
Fool is he who fails to read...
The writing on the wall.

Fool is he who trusts...
Fool is he who lets innocence...
Crumble him into crusts.

Friends...

Friends are treasures...
Just because they've changed...
Doesn't mean they've bailed.
It just means...
You each have to lead...
Separate lives sometimes.

Live for Today

After a while...
You learn to build
Your roads...
On today...
And not yesterday...
Or tomorrow...

Broken Bridge

Deep into my heart...
With thorns your pierced...
Regards for my feelings...
Have you none...
Throwing stones and hurling insults...
Is now your pleasure...
Broken forever...
Is our bridge...

Broken Bridge

Hope Lies...

They say hope is good….
Kind of like food…
I say fools are those…
Who ever had a dose…

They say hope is bright…
Kind of like light…
I say naïve are you…
Who believed to be true…

They say hope is life…
Kind of like a wife…
I say what a lie…
All you feel is fie…

They say hope is rainbow…
Kind of like snow…
I say you should know…
It can never be so…

They say hope is kind…
The best you can find…
I say balls to you…
Who believed it to be true…

Treacherous Hope

Oh, ye treacherous hope...
Grant us not with stances to mope...
Oh, ye monstrous hope...
Lie us not of thine unduly love...
Oh, ye cautious hope...
Guard us not from joyful grope...
Oh, ye deceitful hope...
Play us not with tempting lope...
Oh, ye, oh, ye merciful Hope...
Pray leave us with blessings...
From Above...

Dear Hope...

Dear Hope...
Why doth thou lie so...
Dear Hope...
Fool have I been with you...
Dear Hope...
You grant and then you retract...
Dear Hope...
I wish I had known better...
Dear Hope...
Never again will I believe...

Detach Yourself or Grin and Bear It...or...Die Trying...

Can you think yourself out of a bad situation? Maybe you can and maybe you can't, but what you can most certainly do is think yourself out of bad thoughts on the situation. Yes, that's right, when you have no other options this is the option.

It's futile to be brooding about things when you know you're stuck in it. If you can't detach yourself from the situations then the best you can do is change your attitude. Moping and grumbling will only do harm to you and no one else. The problem lies with you now and not with the circumstances. Are you going to let circumstances rule you? Are you going to let the bad situations in your life determine your happiness?

Attitude is everything. You can choose to pout and feel bad about your prevailing mishaps or you can choose to conquer them with your thinking. It is up to you and no one else.

You see, when you're stuck in such conditions that you can't get out of (or even if you can but won't, for whatever reasons) the problem shifted from the situations to you. In other words, you have become the problem. Your next task is, therefore, to change yourself....change your attitude...your outlook. And let me tell you this...it surely is a tough job.

Yes, I mentioned it being tough, but mind you, not impossible to achieve. So keep this in mind always..."Tough times don't last, but tough people do".

Steve Jobs' 2005 Stanford Commencement Address

Deserted

You came into my life
And you touched my heart
You bring back my smiles
And you make me laugh
In my silence you see my pain
And you make it all end
You are my solace...my mirth
In the arms of the angel I lie
And now you left me lonely.

Choices

There comes a time in your life when you arrive at a crossroad. In this moment you must carefully choose your path. Will you fight to stay on the road knowing too well that this happiness is only momentary and will eventually lead to more heartaches and condemnation? And will you be able to live with the stigma that could be attached to you for life? If you opt for a more honorable road would what you have forsaken be worth all the sacrifices?

Gazing far along the trail and visualizing remotely even a single meek road towards happiness--however fleeting it may be--which path would you choose--the more noble one which is a surefire for a lifetime of misery or a somewhat unethical road that promises some brief emotional satiation?

Pride and Joy 3 (trailer)

The Alleged 'Syndrome' Resurfaces

I think my imagination is too vivid--leaning towards something detrimental. I tend to fathom the worst in a situation. Life's too good! I am being inanely paranoid, especially these days.

"When life gives you lemon, make lemonade out of it", "Look on the bright side of things", "Life is what you make it". These and many phrases I can quote. But I certainly am not practicing what I preach. I freely hand out encouraging quotes to people who're in distress. But what happens when it's me? I freeze out. I blur out. I black out. I know not what to do, nor how to handle my own emotions.

This empty nest thing shouldn't be this bad. I should be able to cope with it and tone it down. Instead, I seem to be breaking down time and again. Some circumstances aren't even worth distressing about. Yet, off I go on my wondrous land of agony. Why do I keep doing this to myself? Subconsciously, do I feel that I don't deserve to be unconditionally happy? Who knows? Maybe I do feel this way but am oblivious to it.

The subconscious is a sneaky yet powerful thing. It lurks and it looms...and it awaits...sort of saying-- "Don't put your guard down, or else...". And down comes my guard. And the submerged emerges.

An Epiphany

I got it! All the emptiness, all the dejection--my sons have flown the nest! At first I couldn't pinpoint what it is--brainstorming so hard to find the answers to my melancholy. Suddenly it all became clear! Of course! I'm going through an empty nest syndrome!

Even though my sons are living here with me under my roof, they lead their own somewhat independent lives now. Some days I get to see them late at night when they get back. Other days talking with them on the phone would have to suffice. How hard it is, sometimes. Never the less, I am happy for them. I am happy for their successes and their happiness. I wish them more and more happiness and successes.

My hobbies--they do not satisfy me any more. I feel like I'm not getting enough emotional gratification from them. To make matters worse, I feel intellectually starved. Something needs to be done. This dismal can not be ignored.

An Epiphany

I got it! All the emptiness, all the dejection--definitely because of this empty nest thing. At first I couldn't pinpoint what it was--brainstorming so hard to find the answer to my melancholy. Suddenly it became clear! Of course! I'm going through an empty nest syndrome!

Even though my sons are living here with me under my roof, they lead their own independent lives now. Some days I get to see them late at night when they get back. Other days talking with them on the phone would have to suffice. How hard it is, sometimes. Never the less, I am happy for them. I am happy for their success and their happiness. I wish them more happiness and success.

My hobbies--they do not satisfy me any more. I feel like I'm not getting what I need from them. I feel emotionally and intellectually starved.

Stuck in a Rut

Sometimes I feel like my life is so mundane and I'm in stuck in a blind alley. I have to find a way to get out of this mouse wheel fast! I suddenly realized I've been following the same old pattern day in and day out. This impasse could create an unbearable ennui. If I don't do something about it now, I would be in-too-deep.

I need to change my course of actions. Out with the old, in with the new. Find a new outlet, a new hobby, a new entertainment--something like an intellectual egression. My brain is rusting away with this lack of use.

Pride and Joy 2

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UB2HHS2awPo

My Pride and Joy

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Untattered

Much has changed and yet nothing has. Our friendships remain untattered through time and space. We are truly blessed to have such long lasting affections.

Days Like This

Days like this is what keeps you going...
Days like this is what makes life flowing...
Days like this we will ever reminisce...
Days like this we will always miss...
Days like this creates hope...
Days like this proves...LOVE..
Can really endure...
The test of TIME..
(to quote an old adage).

Touched...Touched...Touched...

Last night's event touched my heart so. I still can't stop thinking about it nor cease blogging. I'm sure everyone went through the same warmth and happiness. However, if I seem like coming on much much stronger than anyone else, it may be because of my reversed crisis. My optimism has never failed me. Yet, these days, my exuberances are never-ending. In fact, I'm becoming more and more favorably receptive to all the things around me. I'm appreciating everything regardless of anything.

Yes, that's right! The glum in me has gone!

Another Afterthought

Our friendships will never die...
We all have things to smile...
Our friendships will flourish...
We will forever cherish...
Our bond is too strong...
Our road together is long...

Still in Awe

I'm still in awe over last night's 30th year reunion celebration. How can friends play such a vital part in warming our hearts? And these are your high school friends whom you haven't met in ages! I'm truly deeply touched by our friendship.

Reminiscing was inevitable. And reminisce we surely did. It felt like not a day went by--like it was just yesterday that we walked hand in hand. We all possess such precious jewels amongst us. We may drift apart at times, we may now lead different lives completely devoid of each other, but in the end, we all are one. Remember, true friends can grow separately without ever really growing apart. The memories or the times shared will never fade. We will have these memories to cherish for as long as we live.

When your life doesn't seem to make sense, look up to these memories. They will get you through everything. When you're having the perfect life, think of these memories. They will make your life even brighter. "Friendship is the only cement which will hold the world together." Woodrow T. Wilson

I have nothing else to add for now. My life is perfect with my family and my friends in it!

My Prized Possession

Friends, I have no words...
Friends, I can only love...
Friends, you are always there...
Friends, you do really care...
Friends, we always have fun...
Friends, we are never done...
Friends, I have such treasures...
Friends, I know nothing measures...
Friends, you are lovable...
Friends, you are irreplaceable...
Friends, we will ever cherish...
Friends, we will never perish...
Friends....
Never again will we...
Be asunder..

Unforgettable....Touched for the Umpteenth Time

Wow! I mean, wow! Friends are such treasures. They can truly warm the heart so. Today is proof of that. It's like we have never been apart! There was no awkward silence, nor any rapport needed to build things up. What a wonderful feeling it is to have such amazing friends. Today is the day I'll treasure for the rest of my life.

Potential vs Possibility

Potentials, we all have them in diverse quantities. It’s just sad that some go through their whole lives without ever really discovering what they are. Or, maybe, (they) don’t care.

It’s fairly an impossible task to motivate someone who’s got the potential but will not look for a possibility. Interest is another aspect. You may have all the aptitude in the world, and the possibilities are also open for you. But, you’re not interested in that particular endeavor. Not even an elephant can drag you then. (this is actually translated from a Thai proverb)

While it’s true that the right attitude will get you somewhere, the opposite is also true. A gifted person with a poor attitude can undoubtedly bloom, no ifs ands or buts. Sometimes just a little self-enhancement is all it takes to get you going.

So is this boiling down to the undisputable claim that our attitudes determine our aptitudes? Is our enthusiasm a more plausible ingredient for our self-advancement?

Deception

CHANGE......What a deceptive concept! "Change is the only thing that's eternal." How lame this phrase is! It's all a lie! I have seen and personally met a person who, in spite of all the conscious efforts on her part, always reverts back to the old ways! So, how is change relevant in this case?

Every time the same old promises...the same old sorry's...and the same old...It won't happen again. Never works. Old habits die hard.

What a handicap this is on the recipient(s) of this rigid individual's ignonimy! We are supposed to bear with her and accept all her follies especially when the insults are hurled directly at us. It's such an impossible endeavor!

Robert Frost's Poem: The Road Not Taken

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.


- Robert Frost
American Poet, Pulitzer Prize Winner
(1875 - 1963)

Virtue

Patience is really a virtue. Trust me....I know it. Yes, you may get a bit frustrated from time to time but being patient through all those times is worth it all. Imagine a lifetime of heartaches avoided from showing constraint. You never have to run after yourself to wipe off your shit (pardon my French). Coz whatever begins in anger always ends in shame.

An Afterthought

Life can be hard
When you take things to heart

Life can be mundane
And it may feel like rain

Never lose hope
For you never will mope

Have faith that things will change
For laughter you will see again

Cliche or not...nothing ever lasts.
Cliche no doubt...change is eternal.

Midlife Crisis

I'm living my life in reverse. Now is the time to be all tensed up and edgy. Instead, I'm all ecstatic and light hearted. I now delight in the things that I once considered senseless and inane. What a boon to my existence! I don't have to go through what other midlife women go through! I don't have to have angry outbursts and irrational vexation! What a benefit to my being!

Yes..I've been warned...by doctors, friends and relatives....even by books. I anticipated all or some of the symptoms and was ready to embrace them. But they were a no-show. I am free. I am spared. I am a happy soul.

They said life is going to be hard. Mine has been easy. They said every little things can trigger you. I am now so patient with big things. They said lethargy will set in. I'm all energetic and peppy. Could this be true? Is it really happening in the opposite for me? Does this so-called crisis really sit well with me?

Don't talk too fast...you might say. It surly will happen. There is no escape...you might add. Well, I doubt it ever will. Look at me!!! I'm so joyful and bubbly. Are these the signs of a person suffering from a midlife crisis?!?

Laughing during a stupidly funny movie! Come on...you know I would never do that! I would just sit still while others can't seem to stop laughing. It's the other way around now. I actually laugh at those silly scenes in movies. What could be going on if not the reverse effect of this crisis?!? Until you can provide me with a decent observation, I'm taking it at face value.

Call of Duty

Duty. Is it so wrong if we evade it? I’m talking about a duty to the nation. Is it so wrong to shun it? Is it so wrong for a mother to try to find a way out for her son? Is it so wrong for us to seek out an escape for this hazardous ‘call of duty’?

I am in such a dilemma. I just want to shriek out so loud. Tears are gathering up as I reflect. Such a life threatening decision shouldn’t be so hard for one to decide upon. But it is. It always is. And the decision will haunt me forever. But I will do what I have to do. I have to protect my son.

All lives are precious. I know. Imagine those who do not even have the luxury to think about an escape. What do they do? How do they cope?

I’m going to go ahead and do the unfathomable thing here. I’m going to desperately be on a quest for an alibi….something to keep him safe under my roof.

I am willing to let everyone condemn me. I am willing to let people reprimand me. My son must remain home with me, safe under my care. He will elude all calls of duty. So…..BERATE ME!!!

Success : The Final Frontier???

Each of us brings something different to the table. Some lives are meant to be enriched by loving parents, and others are meant to suffer with them. Some are born to be successful at everything they touch, others are born to be the best parent a child could ever have. We can not expect everyone to be a notable businessman. Nor can we expect that all parents can fulfill the desires of their children.

We need to be able to discern and recognize the diverse roles of the various people in our lives. They all have their place in this world and in our lives. Good people need not be wealthy people. The individual at the top of the ladder need not be the bad ones. Judging a person by their monetary success and fame is faulty. Some men are distinguished humanitarians. Others are just assholes.

It is crucial that we enlighten ourselves with these facts of life. We should not assume that a remarkable person must also be lucrative. Should we really appraise an individual according to his abundance? Or is his noble character sufficient for reckoning?

These are burdensome elements to reflect upon. We have been brought up to esteem financial achievement as the ultimate attainment. Are we willing to substitute our bed of roses with commonplace existence?

Waiting

I've been waiting
For a guy like you
To come into my life
To make things right

I've been waiting
For a guy like you
To take away all my pain
To keep me sane

I've been waiting
For a guy like you
Who knows all my trouble
I never need to babble

I've been waiting
For a guy like you
Who will cherish me
However I will be

I've been waiting.....
And I found you

Sons

Son I'm so proud of who you've become
You've made my life worth treasuring
You seek after your dreams without retrieving
You continue to grow in the right direction
In spite of the obstacles in your path
You never falter from your true self
Your moral is strong and firm

You came into this world
To take away my pain
You came into my life
To make things right
You are a gift from heaven sent

In your quiet contemplation
You gained your muse
You are such a kindred spirit

I could not have asked for a better son

"Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you've imagined." Henry David Thoreau

Do Good

When a mean person goes out of her way to do something nice for you, is it safe to say that she has changed? Or does she have some ulterior motives?

If she’s whispering into your ears and asking your forgiveness for all the heartaches that she has caused you, can you be sure that it’s going to be permanent?

All these and other unanswered questions are lurking in my head.

Yes I reciprocated. What else could I have done? I am a gentle soul. I give ‘good’ when I get ‘good’. And yes, I give ‘good’ even when I don’t get ‘good’. It’s just the way I am. I have good and loving parents. They taught me the ways of the world. They taught me compassion. They taught me forgiveness. They taught me that people are fallible regardless of who they are. Most important of all I was taught that everyone has goodness in them.

To sum it all up…..Do Good All The Time.

If

If I tell you to love me
Will you do so without asking
If I tell you to kiss me
Will you do so without flinching
If I tell you to hug me
Will you do so without stiffening
If I tell you to smile at me
Will you do so without smirking
If I tell you to look at me
Will you do so without gawking
If I 'had' to tell you to do those things to me.....
What does it say about our relationship?!?!?

Feelings

Nothing can be compared to the 'highs' you get from aerobics exercise. This endorphine thing is like a drug. You get so addicted. The craving is so compelling.

On the days that you can't fit exercise into your hectic schedule, you feel so empty. You try to squeeze it in, somehow, with the little time that you have. And when it doesn't work your way, you make a pact to double your routine for the next day.

Blame

Blaming others for the bad situations in your life will not resort to anything. Instead, humbly accept the circumstances and move on, or, do something to improve them. You always have a choice. Circumstances can change. Nothing is ever permanent, be it happiness or unhappiness.

Stand up and take charge of your life. No one can make you do anything without your consent. You can either choose to sit still or to rise above it all. Exert your rights.

Nothing good ever comes of blaming others for the events in your life. Change it. If you can't then change the way you perceive it. When you place blame on someone, it enslaves you. This feeling puts you in bondage forever. Only when you accept will you be free. Forgiveness and acceptance heal.

Positive outlook is everything. No matter how bad the situations, it will change.

Show Appreciation

Appreciate what you have while you still have them. Oftentimes we tend to take for granted of the things that are around us. We are always trying to look only at the closed door when there are so many windows still open for us to venture into. This type of attitude will lead us nowhere. Only when we show gratitude will good things come into our lives.

How many times did we show appreciation that we have a roof over our heads? Some people are homeless. How many times did we thank our spouses? Some people have to sleep alone on their beds. How many times did we say thanks to God? He is looking over our shoulders. How many times did we tell our subordinates that we appreciate the work that they do for us? Some people have to do everything themselves. How many times did we thank our parents? Their love for us is eternal. I could go on forever. There are endless things to show appreciation for.

Don't overlook the blessings in your life. We have been given so many gifts. We have a home to come to. We have cooks. We are living close to our parents and all our relatives and brothers and sisters. Only when you learn to be grateful for all the blessings in your life will you find utmost happiness. Don't look at the bad things but look only at the good things. Appreciate everything. Be grateful about everything.

My life is good. I should appreciate it more and more. My business is good. I should enjoy it more. The future is so uncertain. We should say thanks before it's too late.

Take a walk around the neighborhood. Reflect on all the things in your life and look at all the people around you. Some have to struggle so hard to survive and to make ends meet. Life is so hard nowadays. Making a living is such a struggle. Money doesn't come easily. In the end, it always boils down to monetary values. We need money to live in this materialistic world.

Your life is much easier than millions of other people. Think of the people who have to leave their family to go to another country to earn a living. Their hearts break but they had no choice. Working at their hometown wasn't enough to provide adequate income for the whole family's comforts any more. Much to their dismay, they had to leave the comforts of their homes and venture into a foreign nation to earn for the family.

My whole point is, you may find that your life is tough sometimes, you may even feel like giving up. Take a look at those whose life is harder than yours. They still find the strength to go on. They never gave up so shouldn't you.

Don't assume that those things will still be there tomorrow.

Sometimes when you overlook the good things in your life, look again. Even a television set in your room is something to be grateful for.

Tear Down Those Walls!

While it's true that familiarity breeds contempt, unfamiliarity also carries the same effect. When you don't acquaint yourself with a certain someone you tend to draw your own conclusions regarding that person's behavior. You could be making negative assumptions to a fairly trivial conduct. You tend to make assumptions regarding how he behaves according to what you see. Most of the times, however, what you see is not what is. What you see may be an act he puts on to hide something else. What you see may just be his countenance at that particular time, but the real person may be lurking in the midst.

It's difficult to understand your own self, let alone understanding someone else. Sometimes circumstances make you do things that you should not have done or would not have done. At times you feel threatened by a certain someone's aura so you act out in a conventional or even unconventional way. Who is to tell who is right? Who is to tell who is appropriate? What's becoming at that particular moment may not be fitting at another. In the end, a considerate person does what he needs to do in order to maintain peace and harmony in that specific milieu.

People build walls to protect themselves and to limit their boundaries. Some walls are built consciously and other unconsciously to guard themselves against the adversities that they faced. Whatever it is, ultimately, however, walls needed to be torn down in order that humanity may flourish. Eventually, the individual will realize the destructive attributes of walls and gradually try to tear them down. Man cannot live alone. We need companions in order to lead happy and fulfilling lives. We certainly do not need walls to block us out of each others' lives. Walls are to be dissolved. Let no one be asunder.

The End

With everything that's happened to our nation for the past few months, I now realize that the beginning of the end has begun.

Whose Life?

My life is in my hands
No one can convince me otherwise
My life is in my hands
No one has the right to make it theirs
My life is in my hands
I am as happy as a lark
My life is in my hands
I would do nothing to change it
My life is in my hands
Though I seem to have no plans
My life is in my hands
So is yours

Changes

Can people really change? I mean like change change. I think it's all a lie, a fantasy created by people who wants to make amends of their past.

A World Without End

Imagine a world without end
Where we can laugh
and play without mend
Imagine a world without end
Where we can live
and dream without bend
Imagine a world without end
Where we can love
and commit without rend
(To be continued and edited)

Seriously?!?!?

What has become of this world? Is this all there is to mankind--fighting for supremacy and not giving in--no matter what the loss amounts to?!? Enough already! Think people, think! How many lives have to be lost, how many people have to be injured before you wake up and call a truce? It's never too late to give up your prejudices. It's never too late to admit that you're wrong. And it's certainly not too late to shake each others hands.

We are what we are. Can't shake the fact. But is what we are enough? Pretty soon nothing will matter any more. All will be lost--all civilization, all modesty, all forgiveness, everything gone. What remains will just be fragments of what was once a caring, loving, smiling, forgiving, and "mai pen rai" community.

Speaking of this "mai pen rai" motto, can we bring it back please, (for our children's sake)? What has happened to our carefree attitude? Has it disappeared down the drain? Is it so easy to wash off someone's persona? I mean, something that has been in this nation for generations and generations. How can it be so easily diminished? Come back, I implore, come back!!